ii realise sumthing. maybe i just go continue updating my daily lyf in my 4th personal diary

&& no one can get hurt because no one could read it..


bye people.take care.

hye readers.

its nice getting to noe dat eu people would eventualliie read my stupidest blog.
sum1 just hurt me because she called blogs 'stupid'.

what is a blog?
update daily Lyf. even if ii hangout wif eu people, i would update here. why? because it is called a blog? whereby its a diary dat can be read by public && dat it is where eu update daily lyf? why would ii even wanna blog bad about sum1 and scared she would read when actualliie its public && that im expecting anyone to read it?

and that if ii noe how to ARRANGE the way i typed so that no one got hurt?
why would i bad blog about sum1 and get accused when actualli ii update about everyone? and that my witness is DIANA? CAHAYA? TIANA? FELICIA? MARIAM? did ii only blog about 'A' person? only just one person? no.

eu are most welcome to investigate everyword typed in my blog because im not scared.

im deleting all of my blogs because im hurt.


she say i hurt her.but did she noe that she hurt me too? and that i kept it for months and that it dissolve slowly?

im deleting it.
i noe just because a person, i wanna delete? but because she reallie stabbed me too much oreadi. i cant bear now. u all shud noe me what.ii will go straight up to that person and say it right at the face.

no insist. im deleting it.

O-M-G!!!

pleaish Lor!! eu are a fugging fag fuggLy fesprado!! ur such a desperado jerk! its so obvious by the way eu blog. it shows that eu are desperating. no wonder the girls back off from eu coz whenever eu make friends with girls, eu would have a crush on them despite not even meeting them yet! and even said eu are sincere?

GIRLS!! for goodness sake! how can a guy say they are sincere when they've not even meet eu!! if they say they like eu eventhough not met, ok! accepted. but sincere? no!!!

&& i lied to hym saying im attached. mak kau!! dia kept msging and msging saying gd luck and that may me and who ever im with, last long. he will move on and find other girls better than me. like hello? comparing? so ur saying im a bad girl?

one more tym pleaish...

O-M-G!!!

ehk eu think i've not been in ur shoes before? i did!! even worst ok! ok fine! im not comparing how strong we hold 'Lurve'. i did once waited for a guy for 2 years. have not met!! calling calling ring ring? yes! but i didn't say i sincerely LOVE hym. i just say i like hym. how can i sincere Lurve hym when not even met yet? and that hw many months later i was attached with my 1st ex. he wanna meet me. for the 1st time! in the end result? he wanted me asshoLe!! how can he asked me to break with my 1st ex && play two-timing with his girlfriend?

another one more tym pleaish..


O-M-G!!!

i noe i can't anyhow insult or teased about their true feelings. but pleaish!! how can eu blog saying i did not accept hym and that i didn't not return his Lurve? and anyhow shoot about me?

Last tym Pleaseee!!


O-M-G!!!

Don't try to explain your mind. I know what's happening here.
One minute it's Love, and suddenly
it's like a Battlefield.

One word turns into a. Why is it the Smallest things that tear us Down.
My world's nothiing when eu don.
Im not here without a shield. cant go back now.

both hands tied behind my back
With nothing.
These times when we climb so fast
to fall again.


Why we gotta fall for it now?
I never meant to start a war
you know i nvr wanna hurt eu
don even noe what we're fighting for

why does love always feel lyk
a Battlefield!
a battlefied!
a battlefield!
why does love always feel lyk a Battlefield!
battlefied!
battlefield!
why does love always feel lyk..


can't swallow our pride. neither of us wanna
raise that flag
if we cant surrender then we both gonna
lose what we had..

both hands tied behind my back
With nothing.
These times when we climb so fast
to fall again.

i don wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
you know i nvr wanna hurt eu
don even noe what we're fighting for

why does love always feel lyk
a Battlefield!
a battlefied!
a battlefield!
why does love always feel lyk a Battlefield!
a battlefied!
a battlefield!

i guess eu better go and get ur armor(get ur armor)
get ur armor (get ur armor)
u better go and get ur armor(get ur armor)
get ur armor(get ur armor)
i guess u better go and get ur..

we could pretend that we're friends tonight
&& in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
cause baby we don have to fight

and i don want this love to feel like a..
battlefield! battlefield! battlefield!
why does love always feel lyk

a Battlefield!
a battle field!
a battlefield!

i guess u better go and get ur armor
ii nvr meant to start a war
eu noe ii nvr wanna hurt eu
don even noe what we're fighting for

why does love always feel lyk
a Battlefield
a battle field! a battlefield!
why does love always feel lyk
a Battlefield
a battle field! a battlefield!
i guess u better go and get ur armor(get ur armor)
get ur armor(get ur armor)i guess u better go and get ur..

fatigue.
tired.

of?


sum1 pressuring me about Lurve.

Please la ok!! let me live largh!!

great! excellent! marvellous!
i managed my parallel parking!

happiie bdae Cahaya!


Happiie bdae in Advance Naqiah!!

not bathed. mense cramping Lyk hell. i wanna update about sum1. can? im not gossiping. and..
i wanna hear comments especially frm Tiana && Cahaya. dis sum1, if eu girls cud relate, has the same doings as sum1 dat Cahaya most probably noe who he is. because eu urself commented to hym wen i told eu about his tag replies. hush.. just go on read...

im nt here to oways update bout guys nor i oways expect guys to cum to me. hello. so despo lor like dat. dis sum1 who i ONCE told eu girls dat i wanna meet hym, with either of eu girls, but that tym Cahaya had a date on Saturday && Tiana was actualli waiting for my respond, make my blood go upstairs.


"i am sincere Aisyah. i will wait for eu no matter what. i lurve eu Aisyah. Please at least believe me cause i reallie sincere with eu. u're such a nice lady and wifey type. eu could probably be the one for me Aisyah." "I donnoe y Aisyah. lately i've been thinking of eu. i think im deeply in lurve with eu"

but in his blog.. "Yup, as usual; love is not been working out for me. I don't know, Diary. Lately i've been feeling crazy & even had a crush on my senior.(? hu the hell is she) Hmm. But aye, 1st(******), she's nice. We understand each others life & work. 2nd(Aisyah), yup. She's still recovering. I meant, i can't go much deeper emotionally cos i [might break the rules of "Don't-s" that i learnt from How to be successful with women]?. Recently, 3rd(****) called me up on my phone & was like talking about our past relationship & all. But it's all good. Just friends. I was texing 4th(****) last night & i called her up! Damn, my phone is not working!!"


how many girls is he contacting?
if a person say he will wait and Lately say he was thinking of me, then hus that girl he LATELY had a crush on? i dn giv a god damn care who he wants to fall in lurve with.

but DON CALL ME CONFUSED WEN U ARE ACTUALLI ONE!
p/s: names are protected except mine

1week ive been enduring this headache. due to laser dat strained my eyes mixed with so many things inside my head. mum- "list down what you are thinking Aisyah.i dn wan eu to oways lock urself in MY room and hugging that bear. who gave eu dat bear?" like i told eu readers, my mum doesn't noe hu gave me dat bear.

things dat is fcukingLy irritate me starting with the most fcukingly irritating:

sampai hati kau membuat ku menderita sendirian. sampai hati kau membuat ku hidup seksa begini. empat bulan menanggung kerinduan, kepedihan, kepahitan dan sekarang baru kau menjelma. kau memang mempermainkan hati dan perasaan ku. hatiku masih dibaluti kepedihan. kau datang dan pergi begitu sahaja. bila akan kau jelmakan diri lagi?

kenapa kau suka-suka menjelma dan terus hilangkan diri lagi? penat ku menanggung kerinduan ini. kau disana bergembira bersama orang yang kau sayangi dan kau biarkan aku tergantung di hujung. kau membuat ku menunggu kepulanganmu macam orang bodoh. orang nyanyuk. orang hilang jiwa.

bilakah kau akan menjelmakan lagi wahai insan?

was so irritating without the wireless internet. abg helped me wif the connection. thank god now im in the kitchen surfing the net. hello!! nyaha!! that means now i can surf the internet while im doing my business in the toilet!

was unwell. didn't attend sch. hectic. brain dysfunction? probably. have watched the youtube below? any benefits watching? ntah..
haha!

supposingly ii fast today but because there were visitors, ii didn't. accidentally! i asked them what drinks they want && the guy say cold drinks. so ii gave hym syrup. theres 2 bottles but of different colors. so ii tasted to find out which one is nicer. the 1st bottle was horrible but the 2nd one, superb. because its superb la ii poured another cup for myself because its nice! fag.

alang-alang da minum, minum je la terus. so ii finish up the whole bottle. HAHA!!

FYP!! argh!! sian sian! damn sleepy. lethargic. fatigue. tired. ii kept eating! what has happened to my appetite? so great. ive not been keeping track wif new updates in MeL. so i abit cnfused what happened in school actualliie..

ii don mind anyone reading my blog. be it my ex(s). anyone is welcome. but a stalker? well, maybe i guess that the stalker just wanna noe about my Lyf. anyhoOs, today was hectic. sum1 burst out my lava out from my volcano dis morning. i was so frust! JiaJia was tolerating my anger. im so soriie darling.

&& my driving was sarcastically managed. breakfast not taken so my brain was abit not functioning. people. im just so shocked when i read this headline. "H1N1 flu: Malaysia confirms its first case".

can i pack my bag and myself into the bag and go escape to Hawaii??

what will eu get if eu befriended with sum1 lyk tiana,felicia,cahaya,naqiah,nazirah,diana,JiaJia,Simirthy and whoever the loud person is? Madness!! totalliie madness! everyday motivated just because of these crazy people. hv eu ever wonder if Lyf without these sickening swines? more madness! they drive me crazy!!

i realise sumthing. im so thin! ok madness. totalliie madness. can't wait for the chalet! && tiana. thanks for the lecture that was held outside lecture hall. totalliie out of ordinary ok. extaordinary. i quarelled. with? Arif!! Omg! can i loike slap hym upside down. for goodness sake iie don hav any feelings for eu so back off bytch!

this is for sum1 who only cahaya and tiana know who she is.

tudung adalah hanya sehelai kain yang menutup aurat. menjaga tata tertib? is a must. BUT! tudung hanyalah sehelai kain yang tidak dapat menutup attitude && behaviour seseorang insan. hanya dpt menutup aurat.

so got it bytch? so what if i can't help myself to cover up my attitude. sehelain kain hanya dpt menutup aurat tapi tak dpt menutup attitude dan behaviour seseorg.

why shud i gv a fcuking care of hym? he said im the 'confused girl'? ehk heLLo! i don even have any feeLings for eu ok! so why shud eu blog saying im confused? eu such a despo Lor! i just wanna be friends but ur the one asking for more. fcuk off this bytches.

anyhOos, was such a tiring day. me and my bytches were talking about applying cosmetics. i was just wondering. cosmetics need tym to apply. putting fake eyelashes, put on foundation and concealer. wah! but i'd rather not putting any. just eyeliner and lip gloss.

because if eu apply and showing off ur beauty, when tym for wedding, guests can't see the beautiful side of eu as the make ups doesn't have any effects because everyday we see ur face that is always applied with make up.

&& im just curious to know..

when can i go mandi laut-ing and patoh again!

am i experiencing heart pain or what? it seems that i have this crushing pain in my chest everytym i inhale. been feeLing tired and sLeepy. theres sumthing i want and need to update here. i saw hym! its been a year since i last saw hym? yeah! he was trying to create a smile. i can see the corner of ur mouth starts stretching to smile. please. i will make eu smile one day!

nuthing much happen this past few days. nothing interesting. i just fyL lyk going out to the beach again. oh god am damn bored!!

oh! readers. i wanna share wif eu sumthing of what i heard in the radio class 95fm last yestermOrning. its about a guy who attempted suicide && yes he died. he commited suicide because he was depressed. so he wanna hang hymself but..
the rOpe brOke!

&& so he tried another rOpe but this tym its big and stronger ones and..
the hOok broke! lyk what we always tell each other. never to give up. true?
and so he tried another method. he stabbed hymself in the heart but!!

he missed it! OMG! i was lyk. waddafag!
one day. he went to the bus stop and he accidentally slipped his wrist..

"and after all the failure attempts of commiting suicide, in the end, he finallly got what he wanted. he has died."
i was lyk omg!! i was laughing of the way the dj pronounce it! imagine eu really wanna kill urself but in the end without eu even realising, u have killed urself? fugging fag fig!





they are Lurved!



sitiie

been sLeepy this past few days. can't even wake up for schOoL. been depressing myseLf over small matters. && i ain't contacting that Arif no more. he thot dat im a confused girl who doesn't know whether i like hym. hes expecting me to have the same feelings as hym towards me. OMG!

i want to go swim by the shore again!!


fcuking arseHole. who cares if i do not know the meaning of sopan and behave. its me && my Lyf!

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